In May 2019, I was diagnosed with a life-changing illness. Myalgic Encephalomyelitis and it has dramatically changed my life over the last six years. I can’t even pronounce it usually when talking to people, so I often say I have chronic fatigue syndrome, and unfortunately, there is no cure.
Best way to describe it is my body feels like it is fitted with a faulty battery, and you try and charge it up but it just slowly drains to the point where I have to rest, switch off and sleep fully. You can be diagnosed with this illness for several reasons. The weak immune system, traumatic experiences you have gone through in life, stress. Which I have had all of it. It also affects your memory. So I have short term memory loss and lousy concentration as well as aches and pains all over my body and the constant tiredness that doesn’t go away no matter how much I sleep.
It has also been hard for people to understand my illness as I look perfectly normal and healthy on the outside but in crippling pain all over my body, on the inside.
At this current moment, I am in the relapse stage. Due to certain situations that occurred in my life, I relapsed in November 2018, and unfortunately, I am unable to do the typical 9 – 5 job. I have grown to accept this now, and I am working on my own business from home.
I have become so much stronger due to the love and support of my friends and family. Also, the power of social media. Due to speaking openly about my illness, I have talked to people all over the world with the same condition and exchanged stories and given help and support. I have made friends through social media who I know will be friends for life.
I know a lot of people do not understand about “invisible illnesses” as myself have had people tell me its not real and its all in your head and get a grip and get on with it.
I tell myself every day…
I will beat this
I will get better
I am healthy
I will succeed in my goals and dreams
I do positive affirmations every morning. I firmly believe having a positive mindset is the key. I have removed every form of negative aspect from my life, and for the first time relapsing I feel fantastic and content, and the happiest I have ever been.
I would love to help as many people as possible as I have a good understanding of this illness so give me a follow on Instagram @kellyjanehodx